My less than scary nightmares have started again. It wasn’t the ghost, paranormal stuff that will usually make me turn on the lights at night when I’m sleeping but more of the disturbing kind. For two straight nights, I’ve been dreaming several instances of me and The Husband – fighting, one of us leaving each other, or not married at all. In my dreams we are always at the 2nd stages of relationships. The part where we start seeing the annoying habits and that every little thing seem to bug us.

I always wake up feeling bad, hurt or longing. But mostly, I just want to reach out to him and have him hold me. Because even if those annoying stuff and non-stop bickering happen in real life as well, I’m a bit happy that it’s not happening right that moment, that it was all just a dream. Most of the time my dreams will show me that I married someone else or that I haven’t even met The Husband. Or that I’m going out with an ex-boyfriend who wasn’t really right for me and that I’m looking for a way to break up with him but I can’t. So I’m always glad to wake up. Relieved to see The Husband’s face and know that I’m lucky I found him, despite our differences. Which if you think about it, isn’t all that much.